| i'm back!!! |
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| 07:59pm 01/02/2009 |
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after a long hiatus i am back and better than ever i am ready to start a new chapter in my life and write new poems and music, for a while i lost myself but now i am back :) i'll write more soon . |
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| my first 30 yrs a blur. |
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| 06:10pm 12/08/2006 |
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so here i am finally trying to write a journal that i can complete. So i thought about my first thirty yrs of life and it all seems like a blur to me, to be honest i don't remeeber most of it and it's not because i partied too much or lost some brain cells due to heavy drinking or drugs. The truth is my first thirty yrs i struggled to find myself I bounced form one school to the next, had many people tell me i should be this or that.tell me i should be a suit and tie guy, tell me that if i don't kiss ass i won't get anywhere in life!Furthermore I was never able to dyy my hair get a tattoo or pierce my eyebrow because no one wants to hire someone who isn't clean cut and preppy looking. I was told that theatre is the worst degree to get and i definatley couldn't study music cause neither one will get you anywhere. my whole life all i wanted to do is use my creatvity and perform and use my creativity for good and inspire others. I'm often critcized for still being in school but yet as I look around I see many people my age working thier nine to five jobs coming home unhappy,and stressed out. I also see people my age who have let themselves go and put on alot of weight cause i guess the theory is the older you get the fatter your supose to get. Yet here I am 30 and feeling and looking like i'm a 17 yr old kid,and i think that reason is because I just enjy life and living,yeah i could quit school and get a job that i don't like but i don't want to be like all those talented people who sell themselves short because society says they need to be clean cut and talk proper. I have a friend right now who works for a fancy hotel and he thinks he's got the best job in the world because he makes 6.50 and hr and tips ,mind you he has a associates degree ,but yet they gave him a manual on how he's suppose to talk and act.This guy is suppose to be smarter than me and i'm looked on as the loser cause i'm still in school,but at least i'm who i am i am me,and no one will ever change that. Many of my friends are called losers cause they don't look like society wants them, but ya know what the reason why the world is so messed up is because society wants to try and change people and instead of letting someone be thier own man or woman they want you to be who they think you should be and that sucks! I've never kissed but to get anything nor will i ever ,so yeah my first 30 yrs are a blur cause i fought hard to find myself and now at thirty I finally know who i am and what my purpose is in this life, and my poems,music,theatre,art etc are a part of me and who i am. I may be a loser but at least i'm healty and enjoying life and living it to the fullest instead of just settling and being angry because my job,family or life sucks, maybe people just need to lighten up and stop hating everyone else cause they aren't happy with who they are, I'm a hippy I'm full of love and happiness :) |
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| Hello is this thing on? |
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| 11:21am 09/08/2006 |
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Wow I havent been on here in years. how is everyone doing? do i still have friends on here? seems the world of myspace has taken over most peoples lives including mine,but its nice to be able to go back to this lj thing and write and know that people will read it, havent had too many blog comments on myspace which sucks cause most of the time my blogs are rocking. Anyway I |
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| A Place to unwind. |
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| 03:06pm 05/05/2006 |
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Things have been so crazy and messed up lately,where to begin what to say, for starters it's been so long since i've been on lj i'm kinda out of the loop. I ddin'tg et a job i wanted, the girl iw as dating for the last few months i found out is pregnant by her x, not to mention her family hated me for some reason, i never had a chance with them, and i'm not leaving chi-town like i thought, but then again it's better than oging home to nothing.So here i am again wondering what lies ahead in my future, oh yeah we broke up and i haven't heard form her since last week. welcome to my life! |
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| poetry,new york,etc. |
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| 10:15am 04/01/2006 |
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It's been so long since i've used lj,anyway things are ok here. I'm looking at some options for the future which could also mean leaving chicago for new york,well canton new york to be exact. You see I fel i can really push this poetry thing to the next level by moving to ny,and I think I would benefit more from it than in chicago, I can also go to st lawerance u in the process on a full scholoarship, so i'm excited about it. but before all that happenes i still have one more sem at columbia so gotta make the most out of it,anyway take care all,peace,marty |
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| wow. |
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| 04:47pm 13/07/2005 |
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it's been a really long time. so how is everyone? i'm ok summer is oging good so far, anyone going to lollapalooza? there are so many good concerts coming up and suprisinly in my hometown of rockford il, more bands are playing. I've been busy searching for grad schools and working. anyway talk to everyone soon, peace, marty |
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| oh yeah. |
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| 10:23pm 06/05/2005 |
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my b-day is next week on the 19th ! |
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| 3 weeks left |
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| 10:20pm 06/05/2005 |
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well there is only three weeks left in the sem, and i'm looking forward to summer so many festivals going on and concerts i want to see. anyway classes are good and fall is oging to be even better, i think i may even take a song writing class, well thats it for now peace. |
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| Send Him To The Iron Maiden! |
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| 08:53pm 16/02/2005 |
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This is Horghs punishment for his crimes. What is up everybody. Just found out Iron Maiden is playing ozzfest 05 really psyched about that. Classes started this week and they aren't too bad, although i don't have any classes this sem where i write poetry or creatively so it's differant for me. I'm still writing poetry on my own and have so many poems going through my head right now.I've been sick lately came down with some type of bacterial infection so i'm still recovering from that. anyway I guess thats it for mow, till next time take care everyone, marty |
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| Snowboarding, columbia and new york university |
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| 02:19pm 24/01/2005 |
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mood:  calm music: avril-nobodys home -live
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Hey all how is everyone? I'm good I'm just watching the X-games and the Snowboarding Competition, wow makes me want to go out and snowboard but we don't have enough snow here for that. This sem at columbia is shaping up to be a good one, and i know where i'm going to go go after i graduate next year. I'm oging to attend New York University and get my masters degree in performance studies, so i'm excited about that. Other than that not much really going on in my life i'll probally have more to say once classes start on the 14th of feb, till then take care, peace, m.l.c |
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| so here i am. |
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| 07:35pm 21/01/2005 |
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On semester break not up to much. I go back to work feb 2nd and i start scholl again on the 14th so just kinda chilin right now. I'm looking for some new inspiration for new poems that i can write, and i'm also starting to draw more, hopefully some day i'll be able to put my art work with my poetry. I need to start playing my acoustic guitar again. I saw Almost Famous again last night, love that movie. anyway take care everyone, marty. |
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| only one more day. |
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| 02:12am 10/01/2005 |
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One more day left and first semester is finally over. it's about time. We get three weeks off and then semester 2 starts so i'm just happy to have some type of break. Hopefully second semester won't be as stressful as first sem. anyway i guess thats all for now take care everybody, peace, m.l.c |
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| blues and jazz. |
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| 06:32pm 30/12/2004 |
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As I said before I'm a fan of all kinds of music including blues and jazz. what makes me mad is now you can find t-shirts sold at j.c penny and other places of legends such as buddy guy b.b king, robert johnson, louie armstrong, miles davis and charlie parker sold as novality t-shirts! Whats even worse is most of the people buying these shirts don't know nothing about the music of these legends or who they are. they are only buying these shirts because they want to look cool and hip with their friends. Even country legends such as johnny cash and hank williams senior aren't safe from this novility cool t-shirt stuff,it's funny when i hear a kid say he hates country but he's wearing a hank williams senior shirt! I guess mtv has friend everyones brain. It's sad that these legends are being misrepresented and disgraced by people who know nothing about them! I think I have the blues now. |
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| 2004 a year in review. |
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| 09:09pm 28/12/2004 |
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well 2004 is almost coming to a close and as i look back on it i can say it was full of up's and downs and a hell of a rollar coaster ride I went on but i survived it all and i'm still here. I made some friends and lost some friends and even walked away from my poetry only to come back to it now. I fell in love with a girl named Lynn who rocked my world, she was from michigan but the distance was too much for us to bear and we broke up, but we still keep in touch and remain friends. I had many people try to change me and who i was and am all about but that didn't work, i'm who i am and nothing can change that. I even had some people try and get me to stop listening to metal music, now those of you who know me know i listen ot all kinds of music but metal music is what i grew up on . Now when i say metal music i'm talking about legends such as Iron Maiden,Judas Priest and Kiss just to name a few. None of this new metal stuff thats out today. I was also pleased to find out that one of my favorite bands i grew up listening too reunited, i'm talking about the orgional Motley Crue. whether you like them or hate them they will always have meaning to me in fact the first concert i ever went to was a motley crue concert back in 1989. I love the new song If I die tommorow, especially one of the lyrics that says i needed to find myself after all these years, because i sometimes feel that way about myself too. If I die tommorw will I be remembered or will I just fade away? peace to all my friends and all my new lj friends and happy new year. |
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| alive and well. |
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| 09:57pm 18/12/2004 |
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hey all i'm alive and well. I've registered for classes for spring and i'm excited, i'm taking a begining jazz dance, beginning painting, technical theatre,contact improve beginning, latin and carribean history, rock and soul music , african american woman writers. full load but well worth it because i wanted to be more creative and diverse. i'm not taking any poetry classes this sem. I love the fact that i am creative in many ways because if i was only focuws on poetry then i'd be limiting myself this way i get to explore many things. I;ve been wanting to go to seattle for the longest time so i may go there this summer and could go there for grad school as well, the rain doesn't bug me, i actually like it alot., in jan i make my return to mt pleasant and central michigan so should be a good time and i have a week to stay this year. it will be nice to see some old friends and some of them it may be the last time i see them for a while because they are graduating. I also need to get down and visit deth metal, talking metal just isn't the same without deth metal around, he has more knowledge on music then most of the people i know, anyway everyone take care, marty |
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| I'M BACK!!!!! Metal Heads! |
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| 11:31am 06/11/2004 |
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Hello All after a long lay off i'm back and better than ever. columbia is going well , too bad deth metal isn't here cause then we could turn this town upside down, much like he did in mt pleasant. how was halloween for everyone? it's the only real holiday that matters. you know what i hate, i hate wanna be metal heads who think good charlette is the look of all heavy metal, maybe deth metal knows of some bands that would gladly kick thier ass, cause they are the worst band ever.anyway all is good here, marty |
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| I need an artsy girl and columbia here i come. |
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| 10:16pm 11/09/2004 |
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Well next week i move back to chicago and i start my job as a mentor and classes also start. I'm so excited about this year. I can't wait to meet new people and who knows i may even meet an artsy girl who will knock me off my feet, so i can't wait single ready to mingle, and start school, anyway all for now i'll update after my mentor training on tuesday. P.S. the best way to get over someone is meet someone new who you have never met before. |
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| Racism in tennis. |
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| 02:55pm 09/09/2004 |
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Well My girl Serena Williams was robbed at the u.s open the other day. I'm not taking anything away from caprioiti she played good but shouldn't have won, the ref called a ball out that serena hit when it was clearly in and caprioti was rewarded the point and then went on to win the match. that was so wrong, and the ref has since been removed from the u.s open. How can this happen,and how can the wta allow it to happen? Just because two of the best tennis players in the world are african american don't penalize them or thier talent. It's sad to know racism still exists in one way or another. Serena worked hard to get back from her injury and she handles herself well on and off the court so i just don't understand why the ref had something against her anti-serena so to speak. she's beautiful. shes black and talented don't take away all she has done for the sport and for african american woman just because you don't like seeing her win . this is so sad :( |
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| my life is complete again. |
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| 01:05pm 09/09/2004 |
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Things are reaLLY looking up for me, I have my poetry career taking off, i'm working on my poetry degree at columbia, i got a job in the liberal arts dept, and i have my niece Adriana, PIa and DEL in my life. To me the beauty of african american woman is unlike any other and the two woman in my life i can rely on the most are both princesses.I found out PIa is transferring to columbia form my old school and i'm so jazzed because now i'll have a friend i can rely on at the same school as me. AS for DEl what can I say about her, she has been with me since day one when times were good and times were bad she has never stoped caring about me or supporting me, Words can't say how much she really means to me because she was the one who told me to go for my dreams of being a poet and don't look back so every poem i write is inspired by her and i dedicate them to her. Thank you PIa and DEl for never deserting me and being real. |
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